[Really, it was too easy - but that was the problem with life in general, wasn't it? Too easy; not enough of a challenge. And yet, in spite of that - or because of it? - not rewarding enough to bother with. Dazai waited patiently until he was sure Chuuya was nowhere nearby to blearily open his eyes just a little, confirming that Chuuya truly wasn't around to see him, and then he swallowed all the pills.
It wasn't that he couldn't handle the pain. It wasn't even that he wanted to die. He was just so bored that, once in a while, risks had to be taken. It was bad enough to keep living; he at least needed a little something to spice things up every now and then. And, all right, the lack of pain was a nice bonus. Drifting off for real this time was remarkably peaceful.
...
There was a voice from far away, piercing the pleasant-yet-sharply-chemical cloud that Dazai had been floating along on. Things were moving, and Dazai's face scrunched up a bit - which required more effort than he cared to expend, but it was the movement making him do it. He didn't like it.]
That's cruel... I wasn't expecting angels to come for me, but to think the devil would send leprechauns...
[... Yeah, he was fine, mostly. Well enough to say a thing like that, anyway - and he only sounded a teensy bit tipsy, his voice not quite cooperating.]
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It wasn't that he couldn't handle the pain. It wasn't even that he wanted to die. He was just so bored that, once in a while, risks had to be taken. It was bad enough to keep living; he at least needed a little something to spice things up every now and then. And, all right, the lack of pain was a nice bonus. Drifting off for real this time was remarkably peaceful.
...
There was a voice from far away, piercing the pleasant-yet-sharply-chemical cloud that Dazai had been floating along on. Things were moving, and Dazai's face scrunched up a bit - which required more effort than he cared to expend, but it was the movement making him do it. He didn't like it.]
That's cruel... I wasn't expecting angels to come for me, but to think the devil would send leprechauns...
[... Yeah, he was fine, mostly. Well enough to say a thing like that, anyway - and he only sounded a teensy bit tipsy, his voice not quite cooperating.]