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Nakahara Chuuya ([personal profile] indensity) wrote2018-08-19 10:43 pm

now we’re swallowing the shine of the summer



[Chuuya turned into the alley just in time to see Dazai fall over, a man with a bat standing over him. There were a few more people standing around, too - who the hell had his ex-partner pissed off now, Chuuya wondered. And how the hell had they managed to get the better of him. Dazai might be a shitty fighter, but he always had a plan.

Chuuya was already kicking one of the men into a wall when he remembered that Dazai's plan was often him.

If t was, he was going to kill him, he decided. They weren't partners anymore, after all. But it might just be a coincidence, too. This wasn't Port Mafia territory. Dazai probably hadn't known he'd be in the area. But if he'd got himself caught up in some thugs' business without a plan, then Chuuya was really going to kill him.

The last of the men went down, and Chuuya hurried over to check on Dazai. He crouched down next to him, gently patted his face, then pinched his nose for a few seconds to see if he really was passed out, or just being lazy. No reaction. He had a few scratches, some bleeding. One of the wounds looked bad, but it wasn't life threatening - it just needed to be cleaned and bandaged, or he'd almost definitely get an infection.

Alright, so. What the hell did he do?

Most people would bring him to the hospital, but Chuuya wasn't most people. He was mafia. And he knew Dazai valued his privacy, too. He could bring him to that pet agency of his, but the thought of doing that for Dazai made his skin crawl. Besides, he couldn't let word get out that he'd carried a traitor to safety. He could leave Dazai here. But then Dazai wouldn't know Chuuya had helped him, and he really wanted a chance to rub that in the asshole's face.

— He could bring him home.

It felt weird. It was something he would have done when they were partners. But it was only because he wanted to annoy him, not because he actually cared that he was hurt. Still, Chuuya hesitated a bit. He brushed Dazai's hair back, just to check his scalp for any other injuries. Yeah, he'd bring him home. He couldn't wait to see Dazai's face when he realized who had saved his sorry ass.

Carefully, Chuuya shifted Dazai around, pulling him up slightly by the arms, and then leveraged his weight onto his shoulders in a fireman's carry. Then he set off in the direction of his apartment. ]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-08-20 03:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[Of course Dazai had plans. His plans had plans, and even his plans' plans probably had at least a vague idea or two. But even the best-laid plans of men and suicide maniacs could go awry, and considering how layered Dazai's plans were, always more like a maze than a direct path, it was a miracle that they didn't end up a mess more often.

He'd taken too big a gamble - or, perhaps more likely: a certain someone had tipped off the people his plans involved, and they were Not Happy. It was hardly the first time he'd gotten hurt for no good reason, but this was definitely tricky. Still, he expected to be taken to this particular group's hide-out if anything, and he'd manage something or other there. Probably. Maybe. Considering the limited options for who could have tipped them off about his true intentions, being killed was always an option. It wasn't a desired outcome, but he wouldn't truly mind it, either.

Still, some person or other always got in the way of that, didn't they? As Dazai came to, the world all turned around and shaking a bit, it only took him a moment or two to make out where the ground was, and realize his situation. Ahhh... Yes, that was definitely not according to plan.

But even so... His head hurt, his stomach wasn't doing much better, and one of his legs had a nasty cut that, while hardly fatal, would be annoying to walk with. Closing his eyes again, Dazai decided that he might as well see this through. After all, his greatest talent was knowing where effort was required, and where he could coast by just fine without.

Besides, if Chuuya was going to insist on "saving" him, he could damn well be the one to put in the effort. He wouldn't get to take credit, otherwise! This was practically doing him a favor, if one with a nasty aftertaste.]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-08-20 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rude. Rude! Ex-partners didn't just throw ex-partners on beds!! ... They just ditched them unconscious in dangerous locations, duh. Should have really followed Dazai's shining example, Chuu.

It hurt (rather a lot, actually) to be dumped like that, even onto a soft bed, but Dazai didn't make a sound. He was unsurprisingly good at that. Call it a special talent.

But when Chuuya talked, Dazai talked back, the half-corpse of him suddenly very much alive and conscious. Getting the final word in was just that important.]


For what, exactly?

[Don't jump against the ceiling, now. Not that Dazai couldn't drag you back soon enough.]

I don't recall asking for your help.

[Dazai wasn't really moving, but he was definitely looking at Chuuya with a sharp gaze, almost as if he were just lounging on the bed.
... Well, maybe not quite that casually. Blood-loss and a likely concussion did make it a little more difficult than usual.]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-08-20 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
You don't know that! My taste in men may have changed since last we talked~

[Even if his expression didn't quite keep up, he managed to keep his voice pretty much as playful as normal, which was as good as things were likely to get right now. It was satisfying, really. Maybe it wasn't a whole lot, but in this context? Dazai would take it.

Especially because Chuuya was 100% right, which was unforgivable.]


No, if I'm going to throw up, I want to do so in your bed. I don't think I've ever puked on sheets this fancy before!

[Very, very unlikely. But some things were better off forgotten.

Well, it couldn't all be banter, alas... With a sigh, Dazai pushed himself up enough to sit, just so he could take his shirt off. He could leave it to Chuuya just for the sake of it, but that might end up violent and/or involving knives, and shockingly Dazai was just not in the mood.

He was already regretting that decision not to get a bucket, but so be it. While it might be fun to ruin Chuuya's sheets with something more than blood, he didn't feel like getting the taste of vomit in his mouth. Slowly, he unbuttoned his vest and shirt, pushing them off bony shoulders. The bandages on his arms and chest were soaked in several places, and the sight of it made him chuckle.]


They don't make bandages the way they used to, do they?

[Yes, well. Surprisingly, bandages weren't very useful as a preemptive measure.]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-08-21 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Shitty taste, was it? Giving Chuuya a look, Dazai simply smiled, and said nothing. The comment was both correct and very wrong, but he hardly felt like vocalizing a detailed analysis of himself, his tastes, and where the two might conflict - least of all in front of Chuuya, who for all his strengths and weaknesses both was just so simple. Dazai might almost be jealous.

Fortunately he couldn't be bothered with such feelings on a good day. In a way, he'd died a long time ago, and it was just a matter of waiting for reality to catch up. That kind of attitude didn't lend itself to a lot of the hopes and ambitions that might have once fueled jealousy.

Yet here he was! Still alive, after all. Whether it was a good thing or a bad thing, he didn't really know, but it was about as anti-climactic as he'd come to expect from life.]


I see your desire to see me naked hasn't abated at all. Is your sexual frustration still as concentrated as the rest of you?

[He might have deliberately waited until Chuuya was walking away to say that. Even Dazai's suicidal urges had their limits.

Getting his pants off was annoying, lifting one side of his hips after the other, but he managed to get them far enough down his thighs that cutting wouldn't be necessary. Pushing them down all the way was too painful (and nausea-inducing), so he didn't bother.

DID YOU SAY PAINKILLERS?! ヾ(0∀0*★)゚*・.。 Okay but how many would Chuuya hand over, because while Dazai wouldn't OD, he'd definitely try to take more than he was supposed to, just for the sake of it.]


I suppose they didn't do too badly. [He sounded like a teacher begrudgingly giving the class a passing grade in spite of being underwhelmed.] All the same, they lacked a certain creativity that could have made up for their lack of effectiveness.

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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-12-03 01:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Considering the bandages covering Dazai's chest, it's not so strange to mistake it for a pillow - though if it is, it's a very hard one. While Dazai himself has slept for an hour or two, that's enough for him, and he's now dicking around on his phone while Chuuya keeps him "trapped" in bed.]

You don't remember how you came to me begging to be fucked? Tsk tsk...

[Though he talks, he barely even acknowledges Chuuya's presence otherwise - though that could be considered positive.]

It's a good thing I took pictures.

[... So much for positive.]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-12-21 09:15 am (UTC)(link)
[Honestly, if there's anyone in the mafia who deserves a raise and/or a bonus, it's Hirotsu. Had the man decided to aim for a promotion, rather than doing his own thing in his own way, the way he's been doing for years, it would have caused a lot of victims, both deadly and otherwise.

It's part of why Dazai gets along with the man. He enjoys people making such choices - the kind that seems illogical at first, but is anything but. If part of that is him trying to find justification for his own choices, well, nobody needs to know that.]


In that case, I definitely didn't take pictures~!

[You believe him, don't you? Just look at this reliable face! Except that Chuuya isn't even raising his head yet. What a bother... Dazai gently pats said head.]

Now that you're finally awake, could you move? I've been needing to use the bathroom for hours.

[Not actually true - if anything, he wants to make coffee - but a supposed weakness should make for a good subject change from those photos.]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2018-12-28 02:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I won't be able to find my way if I don't turn on the lights, Chuuya. What if I break my neck?

[Hmm... Actually, that's probably not the most painful way to go? But having Chuuya cause his death, no matter how indirectly, would be a pain.

Pat-pat. Pat-pat-pat-pat.]


Let me up, okay? Or everything's going to get wet. I promise I'll get you your painkillers.

[He'll even throw in some coffee, because he's a nice(*citation needed) guy like that.]

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[personal profile] diesuki 2019-01-05 10:51 am (UTC)(link)
[Dazai may not love this bar, but he loves the memories living there. There's no real point in coming here just to relive a past that will never come back, of course. Emotionally, it's pointless torture, and from a purely practical standpoint, having any one place he frequents is just plain stupid. He has as many enemies as he has spent days under the sun, and while he's pretty sure he's got the most dangerous ones under control with information and arrangements for counter-measures even after his death, any idiot can get lucky.

But why should Dazai care if he dies? And how else could he stay in touch with the dearly departed?

So he still comes here on occasion, and drinks. It's usually just one drink for the sake of it, but sometimes, like today, he gets a little more invested in his drinking. Of course he can handle his drink just fine, and Dazai, being Dazai, shows no signs of being drunk. For that matter: maybe "drunk" isn't even the right way to describe him. There's no slurring his speech; no being unsteady in his moves. The lack of control that comes with being well and truly drunk is something that Dazai has never experienced.

And yet something about Dazai is definitely different. If anything, to the very careful observer, he might seem... tired?]


That much, I know.

[And he would indeed have made a semi-nasty comment on that account, had Chuuya not beaten him to it... or even if he'd just cared enough, honestly.

It's not that he doesn't care about Chuuya, in his own way. But everything is a little too dim to make Dazai feel much of anything, right now. Still, he forces himself to display some energy, if only in his speech. That his expression doesn't quite follow his cheerful tone is something that Chuuya will just have to forgive.]


Since you finally came here, why not have something to drink? The whisky is pretty good.
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[personal profile] diesuki 2019-01-05 11:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Though he's been almost completely focused on his glass - just the one glass, at least - Dazai glances over to Chuuya at that message. A favor, indeed. While it's true that it's something Dazai hadn't seen coming - hadn't expected at all, in fact, which makes it borderline suspicious - that doesn't make him any more inclined to accept the kind of help that inevitably comes with conditions.]

Tell Mori-san thank you, but our little Detective Agency can't afford his help.

[Dazai should look into the facts, but he's just not in the mood - and, again, too suspicious, though he supposes that making Chuuya come here could have been Mori's only real intention. He sighs, taking out his phone. Drunk or not, he types at lightning speed, a long message that includes more emoji than even an elementary school girl would use. Send, done. Let Kunikida sort it out for now.]

That is a rude question, Chuuya. Do I look drunk to you?

[All evidence to the contrary, the question is half serious. If even Chuuya can tell something's off, maybe Dazai went a little too far with his drinking anyway.]
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[personal profile] diesuki 2019-01-05 11:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Dazai doesn't try to hide what he's typing, as it happens. The mafia knows about Kunikida, and they must be expecting him to pass on the news about Takahashi. So what does he have to hide? Sure, if he'd felt more energetic, he would have tried to keep Chuuya from peeping just for the sake of it, but even then, it wouldn't have been to hide anything as such.

Dazai lets out a single, soft breath of a laugh. He always looks drunk, does he?]


That may be true.

[Both statements, really. If he should do something about that, he can't bring himself to care right now.

It's probably not important.]


How's the wine~?

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[personal profile] diesuki 2019-01-05 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Do you think you can be?

If only your restraint were proportionate to your physique instead of your ego!
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[personal profile] diesuki 2019-01-06 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I wonder. Your restraint isn't big enough for that kind of responsibility, either.
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[personal profile] diesuki 2019-01-06 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
If your responsibility is to wreck things irreparably, then yes.

But I like my limbs where they are.

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