indensity | with all these moving parts; i found you in the dark

[Chuuya hasn't gone on many vacations before. When he's taken time off, it's usually only been a few days at most, because he likes working, and he doesn't usually know what to do with himself with no responsibilities to fill his day. He's never seen anything wrong with that - he chose that life.

This though, is different. It does feel a bit weird, like he should feel guilty about this even though he doesn't, a thought that doesn't even make sense to himself. But it's not like he's here because he's running away from his responsibilities, which is what vacations normally feel like to him. He's here because he's choosing Dazai - choosing the two of them. He's here because that's important. He's determined to enjoy himself, too, to relax, to not take a single work call during the time that they're here. It sounds like it should be impossible, except that so far - less than a day after they arrived, so not really anything to brag about yet - he hasn't even considered breaking that promise.]

I wonder if they have any hats at the local market.

[He might just be saying that to tease Dazai a little. He's not even wearing his hat at the moment, and if he wanted a new one, he'd order one especially made for him, but there's enough people wearing them here to protect from the sun. It makes sense. But Chuuya isn't really looking for anything in particular here. He's curious to see what it's like, how different it might be, and the plan is to just go with what seems interesting and deciding later.

(He's pretty sure Dazai would say the plan is to not have a plan, but that's why Chuuya isn't telling him his plan.)]

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